Saturday

It is Saturday, April 7th 2007, and it is snowing! I am so tired of snow...

It just makes me want to curl up and sleep all day. My poor, poor tulips are blanketed in white death. Snow just depresses me at this point. In December snow is beautiful and makes me smile...but today it makes me sad.

Why am I so swayed by weather? Beats me...

I know this a random post...but that suits the day.

Cleaning out the Closets

This weekend I was on a Spring cleaning frenzy. My main focus was my guest bedroom closet. When we moved in August I threw everything that I didn't know what to do with in that closet and it just kept growing and growing and growing.

That closet haunted me...and I am not kidding. That bedroom has become my bedroom because my dear husbands snoring has become insane. So some of my clothes and shoes have commuted with me. That closet begain to symbolize my life...like a big pile of chaos.

About a month ago I decided to de-clutter my life and I thought what better way to mirror that in the physical than by cleaning out that closet.

Well--it took me about 4 hours...but that closet is a functional piece of art...and so am I.

Winter just kills me!

Am I the only one who wishes we could just go in to hibernation? I hate winter and all that darkness and cold and snow. I realize it is a necessary evil, but I am so glad that Spring has sprung. My tulips and daffodils are all happy and bright. The trees begin to sprout their fresh plumes of color and the grass gets a brand new lease on life.

What about me? Well my disposition changes completely. I want to do things like clean up the house and exercise and dance. I get to come home from work and throw on shorts and make a big healthy salad for dinner.

Something just switches in my brain...I don't even mind the rain because I know it brings more green and more flowers. I love to go to sleep listening to the frogs chirp and wake up and listen to the birds sing. I like to watch the Robins dig up worms and watch dogs and cats go crazy in heat.

People are happier too...they just can't help it.

So I am happy too.

Remember Me?

Well fellow bloggers I know it has been a while, but I just thought I would post a little message to let you know I am fine...

It has been a hectic few months, but I am bouncing back and getting back on track. I started class back in March and am finishing up my first semester with a 4.0! It was much more fun than I thought it would be and I am getting ready for vacation.

I am going to the lake with my best friend Jen and we are going to visit my Grandma. I plan on having a ball!

I won't promise more posts, but I will promise that I am happy :-)

Here Comes The Sun

What is it about the sunshine? It is my drug of choice!

I remember watching "Wife Swap" once and this crazy lady was a vegan and she said that she was trying to quit eating all together and that she was trying to sustain herself by, "eating the sun." Ok, whatever, so I thought.

But, I'll be dipped and deep fried! It works! This sunshine is making me happy and snappy and alltogether wonderful! :>)

I hope you all are enjoying it as much as I am!

My original name was supposed to be Sunshine Moonbeam, maybe that has something to do with it.

Much love,

Sunshine Moonbeam

Perspective

I realized that I have been a big ol' downer lately. I have to admit that I am a bit depressed. Nothing clinical, just circumstantial. My job has been really stressful and is just now easing up a bit.

I began classes on March 6th and that has been a real experience. After being out of school for ten years my entire approach has changed. It is really hard to get back into the critical thinking mind set. I am used to practical analysis. I feel like an idiot! Not really, but I also have much higher expectations for myself than I did as a kid. I was happy as long as I was passing, now if it is not 100% I question every aspect of myself. I got my first grade posted and it was 98% and I am torturing myself wondering what I could have done to get 2% more. I am too funny.

On Wednesday, March 8th a great man, my grandfather went home to be with the Lord. It wasn't something expected and it has been really hard. I would like to post a tribute to him in the days to come, because he had such an amazing life and I would love to introduce him to you.

My husband and I gave the eulogy at the funeral and it was so hard looking at my Granny, Mom, Aunt and Uncle and saying a temporary goodbye to my granddad. I miss him so much and while I know that he is in a much better place; free from pain, diabetes, heart problems, and the like, I am selfish.

He and my Granny are so special to me, like a skillfully prepared set of other parents. Fun, thoughtful, caring, hilarious, naughty, simple, loving, perfect. We buried my Granddaddy on Saturday, March 11th and my heart still hurts.

Last Tuesday I came back to work and then was overcome by a horrible cold. I went to the Dr.. on Thursday and he said, "Go home and get in bed!". No work until Monday.

So here I am Monday and back at work. I have class tonight-online, so I have been furiously preparing for that. I hope to get back into blogging, it really does help.

I am going to try to not be such a drag...I seem perpetually sullen. That is not me, so I am going to make myself retreat from sadness and welcome spring with a smile.

I am still alive...barely

This has been one of the toughest months in my career. Very difficult, emotionally and physically draining and demanding.

I have really missed blogging, but I have to say that simply have not had an ounce of spare time.

I really don't even know if I can continue this or not.

I am beginning classes this Monday and work is not letting up.

I will try to post, but don't hold your breath.

I am still trying to remember to breath.

Love,
M